Thursday, February 26, 2009

Missing out


I have no idea what to write today. I haven't written in a few days because work is kicking my ass. (I guess I'm not used to the schedule yet.) I hate when I get up in the morning and I look over and my husband and kitty are all snuggled in and sleeping away, and I'm getting up to go to work,...I get jealous and resentful. I can't help it. I wanna just be able to nap and cuddle the day away w/ them. (I know that's unrealistic tho.) Hey, I'm lucky I got three years to do that already,....some people will never have known time like that. So I do count myself EXTREMELY lucky. I just have to keep remembering it,-thats all. Anyways,-I saw Jamey Johnson on the Tonight Show last night, and I was so in awe,...and thats all I will say about him. No one's reading this,-probably because I scared away you-all w/ my stalker-like raves about him earlier. Sorry 'bout that. (Not that I didn't mean every word, but I will stop. I just love the guy tho, he is AWESOME and thats it.)


ANYWHO,~I made a big,fat lasagna this morning. Being that we STILL DON'T HAVE A COUNTERTOP, therefore no kitchen sink,so it makes it kinda hard to cook and clean and prepare. Yea,...now that I'm working, my husband finally got going on it and this week it will be installed. It's like pulling teeth w/ him!!! He is so hesitant to do anything at all now-a-days, I don't know what to do anymore. Things w/ him have been tense and we have been just passing time, as they say. Now that I'm working full-time, I hardly get to spend any time at all w/ him or my kitty. I see my kitty already bonding even more w/ my husband. I get a little jealous, but I'm glad. It's really cute actually,....my kitty just adores him. When he leaves the room, Sugar will run after him and then sit and wait patiently,....SO CUTE. I do feel left out tho. I'm very conflicted w/ work. I'm so lucky to have gotten a great job, full benefits, etc. but I want to be able to spend some time w/ them like before, and I know that just can't happen. (NOT that it's the same, but now I know how a parent feels leaving their child,~like they will miss something cute, and a moment you can't get back.) I feel like that ALOT now, and it hasn't even been a full week of work yet! Jeesh. What's next?

1 comment:

merelyme said...

With all the stress you have been going through...new job...impending displacement...it would put me in "survival mode". Be on the look-out for depression in your hubby.
Bravo on the lasagna.

Good thoughts at you.