Okay,...so I can't seem to get this picture I saw from Pinterest outta my head. I like, have to have this look. Maybe I'm crazy,....but I can't seem to stop being OBSESSED with it,....and getting this look on me. (Only I'd do it with some sort of denim shirt.) And I'm willing to go in debt to do this,-THAT'S HOW OBSESSED I AM WITH THIS PICTURE. How can I be like this? Do other people (girls,) go thru this? I can't stop thinking about it,....like when I found that Givenchy bag on eBay and HAD to have it,...or the "shoe myth" Manolo Blahniks from SATC,...got those too,....I mean is there something really wrong with me that I can't get this picture outta my head? I have to get this look at any cost. I do. And I don't care what I have to do to get it, and soon as possible. Soooo,....just putting it out there. Cause I'm crazy,...I'm in my crazy place,...and don't know what to do. I'll show you my look compared to this one once I get it. Contrast and compare. How's that? Over the edge or what? Okay,.......I'm going back in,.........eBay, Pinterest,.....I'm outta here,....
So last night my hubby and I were watching "Blue Bloods" on DVR,...and a commercial came on that I did a double take on,(even tho we usually skip the commercials,) and so did my hubby. I saw a picture of Russell Crowe flash across the screen,...OH YES,...Russell Crowe,...only the other man of my dreams,....he has another new movie coming out, (besides Les Miserables with Anne Hathaway that I could take it or leave it,) but if he's in it for more than a cameo which I believe he is,...I will see that also. But FIRST will be "Man with an Iron Fist",...and gawd, I can't wait. I love, love, love, every movie that he's ever done since "The Insider". He is just so unbelievable talented to me,...and yes, I know he has a temper to go with that,...but so what. He's smart, talented, and up to a week or two ago, he was happily married with two kids,...and I loved that about him. He seemed like one of those guys that took marriage very seriously, and would do anything to make it work,(how I am, and more people should be now-a-days.) I guess his career is more important, and for that I am very let down and disappointed in him,...cause being a happily married family man is very attractive. (Not to have an affair with,...I DON'T mean it that way.) I just love that someone's happily married. Same thing when I found out my favorite athlete got divorced after like 16 years of marriage. (Patrick Roy.) It honestly broke my heart. I don't get it. It makes me crazy when I think about it. How could someone give up after all that time? When do you stop saying,..."I did that with him," or "oh, I went there with him"? It would never end. And they both have kids together,...how much worse could that be? I mean,...I don't care how "amicable" it is supposedly,....it just breaks my heart all the way around. Mind you I'm not being judgmental, I'm really not. My husband and I both came from parents that were together til the day they died. My parents were so lovey-dovey it was kinda gross growing up with that. Now I look back and think how cute it was. How lucky I was,and they were. You don't see that today,.....I almost think it's more common to come from divorced parents,....and again,...I can't imagine. I don't know,...it's just kinda sad. I mean you can't grow old and have your "career" take care of you and keep you company,-right? So on that note,...I will proceed to Pinterest,..and go have some fun and forget about all the divorces and break-ups. Too sad, and disturbing to me. Besides,...now I have to think about who he's going to date next. Ewwww,..... P.S. Gawd he IS GORGEOUS tho. THAT'S A MAN. Whew!!!
Okay,....so second day at the gym today and it was great. I'm so sore it hurts to move, and I love it. I've missed this feeling so much. Tomorrow morning I have to bring my car into the shop to be serviced. I hate Lexus dealerships. Hate the whole damn thing,...but ya gotta do what ya gotta do. Some light came on two days ago when I was driving,....it said "TRAC OFF". Whatever that means. So into the shop it goes. It's been due for an oil change anyways. I just hope there is nothing seriously wrong with it. (*Keeping my fingers crossed.*) I'm off this Sunday,...and I'm so happy to have it off. Things at the new location are so much more relaxing,...and just plain better. I have to admit, I like it,......even the drive is relaxing. And nothing happening on eBay,...and yes,....I'm still TOTALLY OBSESSED WITH PINTEREST. Totally.
I just can't stop. Who the heck thinks up these websites? And why can't I think one up? People make a ton of money on all these things, and I can't get thru taking my car to the shop. I have thought up two apps that I would like to talk to someone about,....but I don't know if that's such a good idea. I'm a little embarrassed about showing someone my (maybe stupid) ideas. I've never been very confident about my writing or anything of that nature. It seems too personal. Too close. Too much to reveal. I don't know. And on another note,...today I was coming home from the gym and some moron came so close to hitting a duck crossing the street I almost followed them, and started a fight. Thank god I was quick enough to pull my car across two lanes to stop them from hitting it. I'd much rather have me and my car hit, then the duck,...than I could really go nuts on someone. I've been trying my hardest to control my anger, and issues. I think I'm doing pretty well,.....as long as no harm comes to any animals whatsoever in my near presence. I WOULD GO BALLASTIC ON ANYONE WHO DOES ANYTHING TO ANY ANIMAL EVER IF I COULD. I WOULD ACTUALLY ENJOY IT TRUTHFULLY. That I don't think I'll ever be able to control. And on that note,....I'm off to bed. Very anxious about taking my car in. Keep ya posted.
Okay,.....so today was finally my d-day. I got to the gym after much procrastination, and I worked-out. Finally. I missed it. A lot. It felt great too,....altho,....I could feel my over-weight-ness on me. I now knew how others felt when I was in the gym working-out, in total shape, and they were trying to get to that point. Now I'm the one,...but I won't let myself feel inferior. I won't. I belong there just as much as the others who ARE in shape. I WILL get there one day. Definitely. I just feel so good that I worked-out. I'm sore already, and I love that feeling,...I've soooooo missed that feeling. I can't say it enough. Altho at the risk of really not being on good sides with my hubby right now,...I'm glad I went. I don't know. We haven't been getting along lately, and I don't know why. We are so not running on all cylinders,....like I said,...we haven't been getting along at all,......and I don't like it. Well I'm not going to harp on it. That's the last thing anyone wants to hear about,- is all that crap. It'll pass. I'm just glad I got to the gym. Can't wait to go tomorrow. Keep ya posted.
Sometimes I feel so good it's scary, and others times,...I want nothing to do with the outside world. I hate it. I went to sign-up at the gym today. Just sign up,...and I did. One big step for me. Than I came home, and my husband and I proceeded to get in this huge fight about what gym I signed up at. I couldn't believe it. I was so happy I took this major step,...and he ruined it with this big disagreement. We yelled at each other,...and I went into the bedroom, shut the door,and fell asleep with Munky. I get like that when I'm mad. I just need to shut myself off, and away. So now he's at the condo checking things out for tomorrow's inspection,(which we were going to do together,) but I think he knew I wouldn't go. To just leave me alone. And he did,-thankfully. And on the bright side,...it looks like our contract with this "Big Ang" is going to go thru,...hopefully she will buy it, and we will be one step closer to moving to Canada. I like that sound. Now Munky is waiting to go for a walk,...so I think I will go outside with her, in the quiet,...and just relax, and watch her play. That always puts me in a good mood.
Today I'm suppose to go and sign up, and start working-out at the gym. After almost 5 years of NOT WORKING OUT,...and almost 25 years OF working-out,...here I am. D day. I'm scared, anxious, excited, and nervous all rolled into one. I can't wait to feel sore,...to lift weights and challenge myself. I can't wait to feel that feeling of being strong again. And on another note,...last night we were watching the Oakland A's and Detroit play, and we were in the last inning, and Oakland got a hit, and our TV/cable,...whatever you call in now-a-days, went out. My husband got so aggravated,...he went and grabbed a beer,and went and sat in the pool. I was on the phone with AT&T for over an hour. So needless to say,...they are coming today to 'fix' it, and come to find out while on the phone, the box in our cardio room isn't working either. And to even top that off,...2 mins. after I got off the phone with them, my husband came in,....and played around with the TV and got it working. Can you imagine? After over an hour of this tech guy telling me to try this, that, and the other,...my husband comes in, pushes two buttons, and BAM! it's working. Wonderful. (The other TV box is out tho. So they still have to come today and fix that.) I hate waiting for service people to come out to the house. And the way Munky is, it feels me with MORE trepidation than ever. And on a fun-er side,..we went and saw Taken 2 last Monday night. I loved it, but I'm partial,..I loved the first one. Made me look at Liam N. in a whole new light. Handsome and very attractive. Wow. The meaner and more capable a man is, the more he becomes attractive to me.(Hence my husband,...at one time one of the meanest bouncers/security guys in Coconut Grove.) Yup. Actually had an initiation at U of M one time to" get a picture with the mean bouncer at.....," as one of the things they had to do for the new football team members. I thought that was great. I know it sounds crazy, but I really find stuff like that attractive. My husband liked no one at all, but he liked/loved me,....so yeah,....and here we are 23 years later.(*happy sigh*) Still love him, like him, and think he's wonderful like there's no one else. And he can be meaner than a snake to people when they deserve it. Just what I like. Any who~ I'm off to do some eBay-ing, and my new obsession,...Pinterest. Yeah,.....I'm losing it. (Wish me luck on the gym thing.)
So again we get a call from our real estate agent today that for the second time, this lady,.."Big Ang" from the reality show "Mob Wives" is interested in buying our condo. And ya know what I say?! WHAT-EV-A!!!
Not only did she blow us off last time, but she put a bunch of stipulations on us when she was interested and then never got back to us. We were than told that she bought the place below us. Now wouldn't you rather have a penthouse, than say,...apt.#10-E???!!! Wouldn't you rather live in Penthouse-E? Anyways~ she way under bid us, and we are going to counter offer, but I don't think she's that interested. I don't really understand what the hell she's doing, or trying to find out truthfully. I just wish she'd put in a real offer, and quit playing games. Who is this person anyways? I'm going to have to do some research and find out who she is. Maybe it will give me some insight on to her"ways". Anywho~ went to the doctor today,...I've been going every other week now,...trying to control my anger issues, and try to get myself somewhat under control. You know I'm having those anger problems. After all we've been thru here,...the doctor thinks it's post traumatic syndrome. I don't know exactly what that means or what to make of it,...but I'm still going,...and I will get myself back together if it's the last thing I do. I swear it. I even told my husband this morning that this Thursday(my day off,) that I will go sign up at a gym and try to start lifting weights again. I mean if I put some $$$ down, at least it will be an incentive to not waste it and go. (At least that's what I'm thinking and hoping.) This new location that I'm working at now,...4 out of 6 people,(not including myself are all under the age of 26, and are more professional than the other location that I worked at.) And they all work out. So that's another incentive. All eat healthy there,...no pizza's every Friday,...no wings,....etc.etc.etc. So that's another good thing about it. I just have to keep up with the driving,....and the doctor knows it, and still won't prescribe me my medication. So now I have to go back to my old doctor and start all over again there,...and just stay with her. She does everything for me. Anyways,....I've been busy on eBay,...just sold an old Coach purse, and an Ann Taylor skirt that's been in my closet with tags on it for about 4 years now. I'm just sic sometimes with shopping. I ended up buying an 8 carat canary sapphire pear shaped ring I found on there. Nice deal, but still not cheap. Sometimes I feel like I just have to have it no matter what. That's how I've accumulated so much clothes, and shoes. It makes me feel better to look good, is there anything wrong with that? Apparently not enough to get back into the gym tho. I have to do that this week. I HAVE TO. Well that's all the fun, exciting stuff going on here with me. Just a par-tay,...ain't it? Yup. (I'll keep ya posted.)
Nothing new going on with me. How boring can I get? Just working,...paying bills, and checking things out on eBay. Altho now I've started on Pinterest,...and I'm addicted. I just can't seem to get the button downloaded,(uploaded,-whatever,...) to my header, so I can't cruise say,...eBay or Etsy and "pin it", when I find something I like or think is pretty cool. I'm so tech challenged. I'm lucky I've gotten this far. So,.....still driving a lot to work. Nothing new on the condo,....and still sitting here in this house. It's not looking like we'll be outta here by July(2013,) to be honest. We're hoping that with "season" around the corner, we'll be getting some interest in the place. I mean we're down to $220,000 for a penthouse condo on the beach, with views of both the ocean AND inter-coastal. It's large almost 1600 sq.ft. so it's not tiny or anything,...TWO balconies,...granite counters in the kitchen,stainless steel appliances, marble flooring in the entryway and bathrooms,...tons of huge closets,....24 hrs. security, covered parking,...a gym, sauna, pool directly on the beach,...I mean you can't beat it,...so WHY? WHY IS IT NOT SELLING? And just so ya know, I refuse to live in a highrise,...and they don't allow any animals, so it's out of the question for us now. Besides,...I couldn't take Munky outside ever,...and she'd have nothing to look at,...and we wouldn't see Sugar anymore,....so NO,....it's outta the question. It has to sell. It has to. I'm going nuts here. What the hell are we going to do? I'm still not working out either and it is starting to really affect my hubby and I. I mean,...he's getting mad at me because I'm NOT working out, but it's hard,....I dunno'. Work and all,....I mean other people work full time jobs, and work out and have kids, and busy households,...and they find the time. I just can't seem to get motivated,....or find the energy,...or even care,.....I'm having a hard time dealing with things. I mean,- I miss working-out, I miss lifting weights,...I miss that feeling of being and feeling strong(er.) And the soreness,...I loved when I felt sore,....I knew I did something right. I miss it,....but apparently not enough. Not enough to get my fat ass in the gym. So I guess I'll be one of those that talks about,..."I used to be in shape",.........god I hate people like that. I know now how it happens tho,.....it's called 'Life'.