I haven't been here in waaaayyy too long. I'm still severely depressed, and trying to climb my way out of it. I just started working-out again, and I'm trying to get my head back in the game. It's hard. How do people do this when things get to be too much? I just don't know how. I mean, like I've always said,...I know I'm way luckier than most,(financially,) and it's just me and my husband,....so why is it so damn hard? Life. I'm trying,...we're trying, but we are still just treading water. Ridiculous. It's just plain sad I tell ya. I'm Pinterest-ing my life away, and eBay-ing, and all the other stuff I love to do on the computer that I don't have to interact with people. I'm sitting here watching hockey,(Panthers and Penguins,) and my husband is at the gym,...and I already took Munky out for her walk. She had so much fun. She loves to just sit in the grass and feel the breeze and look around. She's so beautiful to watch. Sugar hasn't been by much because of the big mean tomcat that terrorizes the other kittehs here all the time. I'm so fed up with him. I NEED to find his owner and ask why he hasn't been fixed. He is a bully and TERRORIZES everything in his path. It's sad. I have to take Munky for her walk with a water gun, my cellphone, and have both our front door and back door unlocked for quick getaways for Munky. She sees or hears him and she wants in. She wants no part of that little as*%&le beating her up again. I will not let him get his mitts on her ever again. Short of hurting him which I would never do to any animal,....I just have to prevent drama before it happens, and squirting him with a water gun is a start. Anyways,.....enough kitteh drama,...but that's all that's going on in my life right now. Yep,....pretty damn boring.
I haven't posted in a while. I'm depressed again,...not working-out,....and just plain ole` feeling crappy about life and everything else. I don't know why I keep doing this to myself. Every single thing is a huge obstacle for me. Work,....paying a bill,...going to the grocery store,...cooking dinner,.....I just don't get it. EVERY DAMN THING IS JUST SO HARD. My husband has been in a state of allergies like I've never seen before. It's actually paralyzing him,....maybe that has something to do with it,- I don't know. I just DO know that we are getting nothing done, and having no fun at all. We sleep our days away, and stay in the house for days at a time. It's very unhealthy,- I know. I'm trying again to climb back out of it, but it's hard and I have no ambition to do it. None. And I can't seem to get it thru my husband's pollen-filled head that it's this house and this neighborhood, and just being here still that's bringing me down. He just keeps saying for us to make the best of it. Yea,-right. Too hard for me. Too hard. No can do. So now you know why I'm not posting and have no fun news to tell ya about. Nothing. Sorry.