Okay, so I'm still on hold with certain said legal situations, thru the July 4th weekend, but only til then. I will be calling said authorities this week, go to a court hearing, pay some MORE fines/court costs, and this whole 4 year legal clusterf*%# will be over and done with COMPLETELY. Yes, you heard me right,....COMPLETELY. I'm still not sure how long it will be before it really sinks in. It all ended for my husband a month ago, and he told me he's still waiting for himself to return to 'the real me'. Funny,....that's exactly how I feel. When this is all really over,...will I go back to the gym?, will I stop being depressed?, will I lose the 40 lbs. I gained? Etc. I keep thinking it will all change like the on and off of a light switch, but I think I have ALOT of work ahead of me to get back to who I was, or find who I am now,(and I don't mean buying more handbags either.)I'm just scared to figure out what's next,...I mean I'm scared and EXCITED at the same time, but I'm ready for the next chapter in our lives to start. I just wanna get there, get settled in, and be there already. In my mind, I'm already there,...believe me, I keep waiting,...and waiting, but my husband is dragging his feet,...I mean he's as depressed, and energy-less as I am. I don't think all the handbags in the world will help me right now,...I have to make some serious decisions soon,...and I don't know how I will do it honestly.