Make it all go away

I've been back to work for a week now, and I just can't deal with any amount of time I have to spend there. I feel like I'm wasting away. I don't know how people deal with it when they have two or even three jobs now-a-days. I just can't get back into the swing of things. I can't. I hate the whole thing. I hate getting up, (even if it is 1 or 2 in the afternoon!) and I hate the whole scheduling crap. Then you gotta hear it forever if someone doesn't get the schedule they want,....and the customers, the attitudes, the whole damn thing, I just wanna scream. I mean, I know I have an easy job,-trust me. I know. I just sometimes feel like I can't take another second of it,....like I will go crazy or something. One of my co-workers just got a second job,...they have two kids, and have to, to make ends meet. Can you believe it? So yeah. I'm back to hating life, hating my job, hating our little world here. Thank GOODNESS for my kittehs. They really do bring me back to life. They do. The cute little fur faces, the excitable eyes turning dark, running sideways at me playing,...all of it just makes my whole world light up. I so love my little furry kids. I want ten more. I really do. And someone came in today with their doberman pincher,...so perfect, so beautiful,.....she has been thru obedience training so she is really a calm, good girl. She prances next to her owner, and she puts her two front paws up on the desk and just licks my hands slowly. So sweet. Not all excited, not all bark-y, -just very very calm. She is the sweetest dog I have ever seen. It's a testament to the owner, because I always say, (AND IT'S THE TRUTH,) that a dog is only as good as an owner will let them be. So the more the owner spends time with him/her, and trains them, the better mannered and socialized they become, more calm, more confident. Ask any dog trainer, they will tell you. And very obviously, this owner cares enough to put alot of time and effort with this baby,....she loves him,...you can just see it. And I wish I had that,....I want a dog so bad. I would love for Munky and Sugar to have a doggie playmate. I've already seen Sugar with a dog, and he can and will hold his own, and Munky, well she would have to learn, but she would soon learn that they can all get along. She's a very good girl. SO~what else? Nothing new from eBay,....becuz my bank account is STILL screwed up,....thank you BOA, you guys royally suck. And someone I work with had their bank account thru BOA hacked into and they are going thru the exact same thing. Oh the joys of life,....all the stress, all the legalities, all the stupid appts.,.....wish I could blink my eyes and have it all just go away. I want to be back on vacation, without a schedule in sight.

Wit's end

Today was my first day back to work after 10 days off, and god, it was hard to get up. I don't think one day that I had off did I get up before 2pm. (It was wonderful,....oh so wonderful.) Some people may think it's crazy to be like that, but I really love to lay in bed, with the A/C nice and cold, and the kittehs jump in next to me, and I turn the TV on, (and the sound off,) and I can stay like that for the rest of my life and be pretty damn happy. Really. Honest. My husband thinks I'm crazy, but I love our bed, and I can stay in it for the rest of my life. (It is much better when the kittehs jump in too.) So,...at the tail-end of my banking fiasco,...I'm hoping by the end of this week, I will have a bank account, debit/credit card, and money again. And also, FINALLY,.......this past weekend we stayed at my mom's (in Key Largo,) and I FINALLY got our wedding pictures off my mom's computer. I went right to CVS today and got copies put on CDs, and I have them all on a USB flashdrive, and had copies made. I am so relieved now. Not having them made me crazy. Bothered me alot,....even my husband was surprised at all that I did so quickly. (When our legal fiasco happened, my sister-in-law was living at our beach condo,while her place was being remodeled, and when everything happened with us, she packed-up a bunch of stuff to make extra room for all of us to stay there together.) We HAD to, the SWAT team DEMOLISHED the house we lived in at the time,......so we all moved in together temporarily, and that's how we lost our wedding pictures,....(in case you were wondering.) So,....just one of many things that has been bothering me,........but not anymore NOW. Yay me. Just getting this done, has made me feel better, just a little. Any little thing will help me right now. Any little thing. Sometimes I feel like I just don't know what to do anymore. We can't travel, we can't do anything but just sit and wait for this whole damned, stupid-ass, clusterf*%# to end. It's really enough to make someone crazy, and put them at their wits end. Thank goodness I like to be home,...thank goodness, and ALWAYS thank God for my kittehs and husband,cuz they are the only things keeping me sane at this point REALLY. Sorry,-I guess I just had to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.

Not so vacation-eey

I've had a nice time off from work these last few days. Very nice. It reminds me when I used to not work. I miss that. I've been cooking dinner every night, and it's fun just like it used to be when that was all I really had to do. Had a little mishap tho yesterday. I brought Sugar in the house from the back door, and I guess I didn't shut the door all the way. I was on the computer, (for a good hour,) and realized that I didn't hear them running around the house like I usually do. I went in the other room thinking they were lieing down in there, and walked down the hall and looked where the back door was and it was slightly open!!! I panicked and ran outside, went around the side of the house calling both there names,....went out to the front yard, nothing,.....came back around, and went to the other side of the house and there they were together, lieing in the grass, looking up into the palms, watching lizards. I about screamed with relief,...and poor Munky was so enthralled w/ looking at the lizards, she didn't even look up when I ran over to her and picked her up. I hurriedly put her in the house, and Sugar just sat staring at me like I was some crazy woman!!! ( I was.) The thought of her outside alone with him scared me all to hell. My husband came home right around then, and Sugar and I sat out back, and then he walked off, to go have fun somewhere else because clearly I blew their day grabbing Munky and putting her in. I came in and told my husband what had just happened and ended up breaking down crying by the end of the story. If I would've lost her,....couldn't find her, I would've never forgiven myself. Those few minutes when I didn't know where she was at,....scared me to death,...I felt like I lost my child, and she was outside all alone. (She only goes outside when I'm with her, and she's on a leash and harness.) I swear, all night I was so shaken, and upset. It took alot for my husband to calm me down. I was a wreck. Totally. So I learned a lesson that ended up okay. Boy,- I don't know how people do it when their child disappears. It's the most horrifying feeling I've ever felt. Funny how that brings you back to reality REAL QUICK. Put my little vacay in perspective,-that's for sure. Anyways, ~ going to see my mom on Friday. Looking foward to that. No other plans tho,...I love not do anything,...I must be the laziest person I know. Yup,.......