Silver Linings?

Well,...I know I haven't written in a while, but I'm going to try to start up again. Trying to look at the bright side of life. So I'm still on eBay and Etsy, and I've gotten some incredible deals on both. Some really nice sterling and turquoise bracelets that I'm obsessed with, and on eBay I got a vintage Chanel black leather lambskin leather clutch that is to die for!,Chanel pearls and bracelets, a Longchamp bag, Gucci bag and wallet, and some Manolo Blahnik pumps. Really great deals. All have been authenticated,...GREAT PRICES if you know what to look for, and do some research on what you are trying to buy. Make friends at the Neiman Marcus store with the associates, and you really can learn A LOT. Have patience for the right listings on eBay,...double check the seller, items, years it was made, pictures, etc. Look at other listings that are at the higher end of pricing, and look at those pictures checking small details,...trust me, this can go a long way. I've only mastered it with Louis Vuitton, NOT any other high end name. (I'm working on it tho.) You get the picture,....so yeah, I've been shopping my ass off, because I'm just too unhappy. Still at the house in South Florida, and just so damn trapped it feels like. Still working, still hating life in general. I have two awesome kittehs that keep me happy, and my husband and I get along for the most part. Right now, from all the stress for the last 6 years, our health has taken its toll on us. My husband has had two cancer surgeries, a double hernia surgery,and is anemic, and he still hasn't done anything with his shoulder. I am pre-diabetic, have high cholesterol, and my my Epstein-Barr is in full force right now. We are like the blind leading the blind. This house is a nightmare, and it gets worse and worse by the day. So yeah,...I'm trying,....I'm hanging on by a thread.

Coming and Going

Last week my friend Louise died,...I am still in shock,...along with Robin Williams passing away,...this has been a pretty horrible week. I havent been on here in sooo long now.  My husband and I are still sooooo DEPRESSED,....we cant get outta our own way. I had dreams last nite that we were packing up this house and moving,....I felt like a different person,...we were moving back to Atlantis. (don't I wish.,) and I felt like we had a life again. Like we were living.  Right now we are just going thru the motions, like we have been for the last 7 years. Wow,.....how depressing. On the bright side,....we have a new addition to our little kitteh family,....little Boo. He is adorable. I found him at work,....and I brought him to the vet and found out he has Feline Leukemia,....so I decided with my husband that we would try to give him the best little life we could,....and not put him down like a lot of ppl advised us too. I give him medicine/vitamins everyday,....and we give him as much love and attention as possible every single day,...and I set aside an hour or more every day just to play,...i want to keep his spirits up,....and happy. And he rewards us with the sweetest, funniest, cutest little personality and antics. We are so lucky to have him in our lives. He is amazing. I'm going to end on that happy note. Thanks for letting me just be here and write even the smallest tought,....it helps me.

I have nothing,.....

I know it's been a long time,......and my life has just gotten worse and worse,....I'm so unhappy nothing helps anymore,...not shopping, not my kittehs, NOTHING. I'm just pitiful. I don't have anything to help,...and I've lost all my friends,...it just sucks. I feel trapped, unwanted,...and very, very disillusioned. I always thought love would always win out,....but it doesn't and it's NOT enough. Anyone who thinks that,- is just fooling themselves,- like I am,- and have been for the last year or more. My husband has gotten so mean-spirited towards me, and I can't do anything right,......believe me,.....if I could leave I would. I never thought he would be like this to me,...NEVER in a million years. I have no where to go,...no friends,....obviously no money saved up. I have family, but they aren't close by. I just totally feel like a nervous breakdown waiting to happen. I hate everything. We go nowhere, our home is in shambles, he won't move,....it's just one big ugly vicious cycle, and I'm the cause and stuck in the middle of it. Sometimes I'm at my wits end. I have no escape. NONE. And I hate it.  I just needed to vent I guess,.......now what?,......