Falling apart

Work is just kicking my butt totally, or I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown. Everything right now just feels and seems like just too much. I'm overwhelmed, and the smallest thing is putting me off. I want to just cry at the drop of a hat. Work, home, cooking, selling on eBay, all of it is just too much pressure and I don't know why. Am I going crazy, or having a nervous breakdown after all this time? I mean what. I don't get it. I can't even blog here because I feel like it's too much pressure, and then days go by, and I feel like I'm neglecting this, and then it's like the gym,....the longer your away, the harder it is to go back. And it's hard. Still doing cardio, but still not going to the gym and weightlifting. Yup. I don't know what I'm doing. What am I doing? This is how I'm feeling right now, and it's no wonder I haven't written here in days beyond days. Sorry. I'll be back.

Baby steps

Watching Sex and the City, hubby's out playing poker, Munky's been walked and out front watching the lizards and frogs,....and I just tried on this new perfume by Halle Berry called Reveal, and it smells AWESOME. I love it. I LLLLOOOOVVVVEEEE how it smells. The longer you have it on, the better it smells. I think I'm going to go up to the 24 HR. CVS and buy a bottle. I can't NOT. Wow. And I finally put some clothing and shoes up on eBay, and I think I'm going to put some more on there tonight. Also~getting ready for the Super Bowl!!! Let's go Patriots. (I'm NOT a Brady fan AT ALL, but to make my hubby happy, they better win Sunday.) I have the day off from work, and I'm looking forward to it. I have a very strange schedule this week, - I'm off every other day. It's kinda nice, I wish it was permanent. (So I'm off Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday.) This is the first week they gave me three days off,(maybe they did listen to my request for a little break.) I'm even thinking about starting back at the gym this week. Lifting weights again, ~ I'm actually excited about it. Maybe I'm finally starting to come out of my depression induced haze of legal entanglements. Or did I say that backwards? Whatever is right,- ya'll know what I mean. I'm starting to kick my own butt back into gear. (Boy do I need this.) I'm kinda proud of myself,.....well I will be when I'm back and lifting weights. Okay,....baby steps,- right? I'll let ya know how this week goes. Yay me.

Condo living-NOT so great

Okay,-so here's another reason why I REALLY dislike condo living; we have had our condo freshly painted, and carpeted, and as a result our furniture there was all moved and covered to the middle of each room. Now remind you, we haven't lived there in years, and we do go there sometimes to go sit on the beach in the evening when the mood strikes us, so there is no warning when we do this. SO~we get to the condo yesterday, and we had already talked with our realtor who has asked us when she can start showing it, and we told her Feb.1st, being that the furniture will all be gone by then, and we went there yesterday to do some minor cleaning and packing of little things we had there still, that we wanted. Well-we figured out that as the day went on, we were missing numerous items. An office chair to our desk, two tool boxes in our hallway closet, a garbage can that fit into our kitchen cabinet pullout, and a beautiful three foot high glass vase with some fake calla lilies in it,....I mean it was one thing after another after another,....so we made a list, and emailed the condo office, and sure enough we called this morning and found out that the stuff was taken by the condo mgr. who let herself in when we weren't there, after she heard we were giving all our furniture away for donation. Can you believe that? Just let herself in?! That's a lawsuit right there,....I'm telling ya,....we were STEAMING MAD, but kept it civil,...but I just can't believe someone would think it's okay to do that, and think we wouldn't know. Just crazy,....people are desperate now-a-days I guess, but really?, a garbage can?,....I mean we wouldn't care but it fits in the holder in the cabinet, so we kinda want it, ya know? And the vase with the fake flowers in it was part of our wedding arrangements,.....it just galls me, that's all,.......I'm just at the point now where I don't trust ANYONE at all. Never again with a condo,-asshole people. Keep proving me right when I say animals are so much above us; humans. Never cease to amaze me at how greedy, mean, stupid, and selfish we are.