Just today

I got a pink Blackberry on eBay last November,(for only $90,can you believe it?!It's used but who cares!) and changed out the SIM card, and have been using it ever since, but only as a phone,....never got the internet or email hooked-up,.....and yesterday I finally got all the other stuff included in my cellphone package. Pretty cool to have eBay, and email, and my blog (and the whole internet world) w/ me at the drop of a hat. It feels like a whole new phone.(I mean it basically is to me,...I've only had it for 8 months, so to me whether it's used or not it's new.) I just have to figure out all the little stuff, which I love to do, but it's not like a laptop. I haven't figured out how to bid on stuff yet thru my phone. I got the email thing figured out, ---that was pretty easy. The rest will just come with playing and figuring things out on it, I guess. So,...I did that yesterday, and I started out my day w/ my husband taking me to breakfast (at 1:30pm) to our favorite local diner right down the street. It was great,....I could eat breakfast like that for lunch and dinner, anytime, day or night. I ended up going to our condo out east to do some more packing. I brought some clothes and shoes over, that was much needed. Now that my husband and sister put in our master bedrm. closet, we can hang stuff, and we have shelves, etc. I almost feel normal, what with the closet, clothes, and my cellphone. Scary, huh? I know,..........little things right now make me the happiest. Anyhow,...I'm playing with lil Monkey, and looking out at our pool in the backyard, and I have to start getting ready for work in about an hour,.....and right this second I feel like the luckiest person in the world. I'm happy at the moment,....

A Moment in my World and Mind

I have tomorrow off from work, and I am so glad. I'm watching Monkey run around and play, and Sugar just went outside,....my husband is playing cards with his buddies in the neighborhood, and I just wish we could be happy and settled, and know what we are doing. I hate feeling 'unsettled'. It seems like as soon as we get comfortable somewhere,....it all changes. Will we ever get stable? I wonder where we will be? I'll have to start all over at another job,....just to start all over again kills me. I'm finally comfortable at my job now and I didn't even want it. I almost hoped they wouldn't call me back, but they did, and I like it, and I'm comfortable, and it's close to (so-called) home. So what else could I ask for? I'm lucky I have a job. Right? Right? And today I actually got stuff done before and after work. Starting to come around. Friday is D-Day for the gym and/or working out in someway again. It will be a year to the day that I stopped working-out, and was so traumatized by all that had happened and gone on. My husband wasn't home for 72 hours, and I was literally in shock,......literally. Our home was ripped to shreds by asshole cops of every sort; local PD,FBI, and DEA. Cabinets ripped outta the walls,complete walls knocked out, furniture overturned, drawers emptied, closets torn out, doors off hinges,....shall I go on? Even our cars were 'tossed'. It took us SEVEN WHOLE MONTHS to get our house 'liveable' again. I cried almost every single day. I couldn't do a thing. I almost slid back into not being able to drive, or go anywhere alone again. Almost. Thankfully I didn't break. I couldn't or it would've been that much harder for my husband. He has been thru far too much. You have no idea,....and he is such a great man. I am so lucky to have him in my life,....honest. There is no one like him to me,....EVER. He is college/book smart, way street smart, can hold a conversation with anyone and impress every last one. He can be down and dirty with the best of them, and is so handsome, it hurts. I am a lucky, lucky gal,-no lie. I just wonder where our journey will led us, and where we will end up? Here, or Canada? Near my sister-in-law in Boca, or further away near my brother in Georgia? I would love to move and get alot of land, and have dogs, and kitties. A home. A real home with a front and back porch you can sit on and relax in the early mornings, or late nights, and just enjoy the quiet and peacefulness. And overlook all our property and see wild animals roaming,....and not have neighbors overlooking everything you do. A place that has charm and space to be comfortable, not pretentious, ---a place that is roomy, not cold. I picture hardwood floors, fireplaces, and old creaky heavy wood doors. Windows that open up-and-down, screened doors that squeek and slam, and porches that are comfortable enough to put rockers or swings on, and sit happily. A big wooded yard with some sort of water, whether it be ocean, river or lake, we wouldn't care. Feeders for all the wild animals would be built on our property. Only the best for them. ABSOLUTELY NO HUNTING OR YOU WILL BE HUNTED signs posted from one corner to the other on the property. It's just what I picture in my little idyllic world. Whether it ever happens or not, it's what I hope for. Peace and happiness and to be with my husband,....is that asking for too much?

A Better Time Now

I am feeling better. I always get more emotional and stressed whenever we have to go to court. We went this past Friday, and the prosecutor didn't show up. So,....another date was set, and we wait, and worry til the next one comes and drives us crazy.And I start all over again. Sorry you-all. Other than that, nothing else new with me. No new eBay stuff either. (I haven't been in the mood,-now you know I'm out of it, when I don't feel like shopping!) Anyhow,....my little Monkey is doing great,....we let her out of her room a few times a day when Sugar isn't inside. She gets so excited and runs like a child from room to room, smelling and touching everything. She is adorable. But if Sugar meows and wants in, the little one has to go back in her room, and play. (I usually will go in there so she knows she isn't being punished. I don't want her feeling like that.) So,-so far,-so good. She's very mischievous tho,....she makes me feel like I'm watching a child. It's quite funny actually. My husband finds it adorable. He had no idea a kitten could be so fun, but such work at the same time. THATS why I know he would adore a dog. Our kitties follow him around the house, (both of them!) and even run to him when they are scared. It's the cutest thing to see. Really,...this big, muscled, tattoo'd man, with these sweet kitties running to him and hiding behind him. Too cute! Anyhow~thanks for everyone's concerns,....just bear with me, and when this is all over, I will somehow be a better, stronger person for it. I sure will have some story to tell,-that's for sure. (I can't talk about it all now, because everything is still pending and going on,-if ya know what I mean.) So,...I'm off to play with little Monkey, and I have tomorrow off THANKFULLY.) I'll write more this week. And I'm loving watching 'Burn Notice' again. Makes me happy,happy, happy. (Besides, Sam is HOT and so is Fi. Love them. Gives me incentive. Something has to.)