I have nothing,.....

I know it's been a long time,......and my life has just gotten worse and worse,....I'm so unhappy nothing helps anymore,...not shopping, not my kittehs, NOTHING. I'm just pitiful. I don't have anything to help,...and I've lost all my friends,...it just sucks. I feel trapped, unwanted,...and very, very disillusioned. I always thought love would always win out,....but it doesn't and it's NOT enough. Anyone who thinks that,- is just fooling themselves,- like I am,- and have been for the last year or more. My husband has gotten so mean-spirited towards me, and I can't do anything right,......believe me,.....if I could leave I would. I never thought he would be like this to me,...NEVER in a million years. I have no where to go,...no friends,....obviously no money saved up. I have family, but they aren't close by. I just totally feel like a nervous breakdown waiting to happen. I hate everything. We go nowhere, our home is in shambles, he won't move,....it's just one big ugly vicious cycle, and I'm the cause and stuck in the middle of it. Sometimes I'm at my wits end. I have no escape. NONE. And I hate it.  I just needed to vent I guess,.......now what?,......