Happy B-day to my hubby

Today is my husband's birthday, and I have the next two days off. I got him a pair of black diamond stud earrings. He loved them. (whew!) He's hard to shop for. He's someone who has everything. I took a chance and it paid off. I love when that happens. I'm in a good place right now mentally. We are on an up-swing I'd say. The next year will be very difficult,....and exciting,....and scary,.....and everything rolled into one, but something to definitely look forward to, and strive towards. (At least that's how I'M going to look at it.) I can't wait to be up in Canada already and looking at homes. Every day we watch House Hunters on HGTV, and we look at each other and say, 'that will be us soon.' I love the whole process of looking at homes, and properties. I never get sick of it. My hubby keeps saying I should've been a real estate agent, but that's not that interesting to me to be honest,...and right now, EVERYONE seems to be a real estate agent. No thanks.So~ my mom came back from GA. yesterday after spending a week up there with my oldest brother and his wife and family. I think it would've been great except the weather was in the 30's and 40's which I think is unusually cold for GA. My mom HATES the cold. (How I am her daughter is yet to be known,...she hates cold weather, doesn't like to shop, and is not an animal person.) Talk about opposites. I'll never understand it, but I love her to death. (She was my Matron of Honor when I got married. So LOVED.) Anyways~so going to get back on Etsy and Pinterest,...can't keep away from them. So many awesome deals to look for on there,(Etsy.) I'll be shopping,.....

It will happen one day

I'm off for two days, and it's been sooo nice,(especially this time of year.) I'm putting up our Christmas tree today. It's a little fake one, cuz I was told that cats can get sick if they eat real pine, and my kitteh eats anything that's green. So NO to a real one as much as I would love it. (I have pine scented candles to help with this.) I'm really not into all this Christmas/Santa stuff, but this year I think I'm coming out of my five-year depression, and feeling a little jolly. I actually want to put Christmas stuff up, so why not. Anyways~ I'm still obsessing over Pinterest, and everything on there. So many great ideas and recipes, I love it. I still do get on Facebook every now and then, and yesterday one of my friends from the bar where I worked, got in touch with me. So cool to hear from people on there. Easy way to find someone and stay in touch without really having to do anything. Other than this, nothing new really with me. Going to get thru the holidays, try to have some fun, and get the house ready for sale. I can't wait. The day we move, and actually drive away from this house, and area, I will be sooooo happy, and relieved. I've made some great friends here, but I'm ready to move on. FOR SURE. The only thing that worries me with moving is Munky. I'm afraid for her, and how she will handle it. I don't want to traumatize her, but I think it can't be helped really. I don't know. I'll figure something out for her. I have to, for my baby. And on that note I will going and getting ready to workout,...so I'll write more when I'm interesting,.....or something interesting happens! You know what I mean!!! (oh, and still obsessed with finding Vintage Bloom perfume. I'm going to find the most inexpensive price for it eventually!!!) 

I just can't

Been working like crazy, (tis the season and all,) and I don't know if it's me or the holidays, but do people get more and more ridiculous and stupid about now? or what? The things I see people do, say, and try to do just makes my head want to explode. And this whole thing happening in Newtown, Connecticut just makes me ill. I was at the gym when I first saw it on CNN, and it just got worse and worse from there. Why am I so shocked and surprised? Why? It's awful,...horrible, heinous, and sickening. I'm trying so hard to work on myself with not hating PEOPLE so much,...but things like this just seem to make it impossible. IMPOSSIBLE. I keep trying to focus on other things. Like I'm going to now,......anyways~ my mom is doing good,....I'm back at work,.....we finally sold our condo on the beach,.....got a new clothes dryer,.....still haven't started on our bathrooms here,....and that's my story. All of it,....how boring am I??? GAWD!!! I have to just stop. I can't do this. I think I'm going to get on Pinterest or Etsy, and go hawk some stuff.

View from here

Still here in Fort Pierce taking care of my mom and staying at my sister's house,- beautiful home. It's SSOOOO PEACEFUL here. I love it. Away from everything and everyone. Can't get enough of that. I hope we find something like this in Canada when we move. Maybe not so grand but something serene and quiet. Boy I can tell I'm getting older,-that's for sure. My mom is doing better every day, but still has a way to go to get back to where she was. It's just hard to see someone who was so active and personable, and fun, NOT BEING THAT WAY. Breaks my heart. I leave on Friday, and my sister will take over for the weekend, and than my brother and his wife are driving back down here from Georgia to stay indefinitely with her til she gets well enough to be on her own. (They are retired, so they can do that.) Ummm,...in the midst of all this stuff,...I've been running around doing some shopping for things for my mom to make her life a little easier when she gets home. Organizational stuff. Looking thru magazines at the book store to get ideas,...and somehow I came across some fashion magazines that I looked thru, and found this perfume by Jessica Simpson called Vintage Bloom that I am just totally OBSESSED WITH NOW.  I MUST have it, get it, wear it, hoard it. I cannot get it outta my head. I get like this about things I see and want from time to time.(As you have read on here.) I don't know why I get so obsessive about things that I must have. Then I get it and it's on to the next thing I want. It's a scary vicious circle, isn't it? I know, I know. I'm lucky I can even do it to be honest. Sooo,...today in the midst of going back to Staples and other various places, I will be hunting down the best price for my perfume and trying to get it. We'll see. So I'm putting in some pictures of various views from my sister's home in Fort Pierce. It's right across from Hutchinson Island and it's absolutely gorgeous here. The last  picture are two of their three dogs that I'm in love with. Aren't they the sweetest faces? Animals, quiet, water, nature, big beautiful home,-perfect for being here right now. In some ways I'm very lucky right now,...and don't think I don't know it.

Life right now

I am at my sister's house again this week. I'm staying with my mom at the hospital rehab facility during most of the day, and staying at my sister's house at night basically. I got here Monday with a lot of drama. I attempted to drive to Fort Pierce alone,...and got on the Sawgrass Expressway, and  had a major panic attack.MAJOR. I had to turn around and have my husband drive me here and drop me off. Luckily for me,...my mom's car has been at my sister's house,....so I'm using that to go back and forth to the hospital which is barely 10 mins. away. It's going okay, but I'm still not over that panic attack. And my husband,...well let's just say we got into a big arguement before we left. We never really did that before,....and he basically dropped me off and he was out the door, and on his way back home before I even put my stuff down to say hello to my sister. He thinks I'm not doing enough around the house, (cooking, cleaning, etc.) I'm just tired when I come home from work. I'm still mentally not together,....I'm still going to the psychiatrist,....and working out, altho since this has happened with my mom the day after Thanksgiving, I haven't been able to go. Soooo~ here I am,...and my hubby will be picking me up on Friday, I have to go back to work on Sat. and we will start all this all over again. The next two weeks at work will be unbelievably busy. I DESPISE Christmas. I've said it time and time again,....I hate what it's turned into. Too much pressure for me to enjoy it. Don't get me wrong,...I love presents as much as the next person, but it's too stressful for me to deal with the last 5 years. Good thing tho is my mom is getting a little better every day that goes by,...and for that I'm beyond thankful. Beyond thankful. So this is my life right now. Fun,-ain't it?