Everyday stuff.

You must call me the eBay-queen. I have nabbed some great deals lately on there. I know, I know,......the economy, no one's spending money, no luxury items, etc. etc. etc. I don't have money to burn, but I'm trying to save up for something, and get something I want once a month. So here I am, scooping out eBay for all the stuff I see in magazines that I want. Well,....last month I've been trying to find a Chanel leather make-up bag,.....well, I got one, for alot less than you would think. I was actually shocked when I won it, and for the price! THEN,- this month my one splurge was a gorgeous pair of black, platform, YSL shoes that I have wanted since the very first time I laid eyes on them! I have wanted these for years. I have drooled, and envied, every single time I have seen someone with them on. I can't believe I got them, and I just have to tell you,.....FOR ONLY $60!!! SIXTY DOLLARS. Sorry,- I'm still unbelieving.Anyways,...let me tell you, eBay, and Craigslist have been lifesavers for me. Trying to buy stuff at a savings,-stuff for the house,(-we only have a bedroom set left to buy,) let alone the chaise we bought on Craigslist, and the cherrywood dining room table we got at Faith Farm. I guess thats why these places and stuff are all booming, right? Who would have thought? I swear, I go to Salvation Army, and Goodwill, and see Mercedes, BMWs, and Land Rovers in the parking lot, and it just really hits me how hard it is for EVERYONE. I've been working almost 50 hours a week, and I think I deserve certain things,-but only as a deal. Right now, I can't see spending money on anything unless its a deal. Well, I'm still spending my free time with my kittyS, and husband. Little Stucky, who has been renamed to Monkey,(because I did get her a kitty condo, and she climbs like a Monkey,) she is SO CUTE. And Sugar is being as lovable as ever. He is turning into an adult kitty right before my eyes. I feel like a parent watching her child grow-up, and it kills me that he's not the playful, lovable little kitten he once was. He is so beautiful, it takes my breath away every time I look at him. I've fallen in love with Sugar more and more every day. How anyone could ever leave him, I will never know. NEVER. Anyways, I will write more when I can.

Just me at the moment

All I can say is "WOW". I just saw the movie called "The Sea Inside", and what a insightful, moving, sad movie. Makes you really think about your life and what's important, and different situations. Javier Bardem from "No Country for Old Men" stars in it, and it has english subtitles. I usually don't watch stuff like that, but I got caught up in it, and boy-oh-boy, what an inspiration. Makes me rethink alot of things in my life. If you ever get the chance to see this movie, SEE IT. I am so blown away right now, I just had to write about it. It will have an impact on you like you won't expect. It did me,-thats for sure. I don't even know what else to say about it. Great, great movie, and story. A true one. What a great man. You'll see.

I hate the world right now

This is one of the reasons why I HATE people,(AND MOSTLY COPS.) I just found out from our lawyer, that one of the (so-called) 'detectives' that helped mess our life up, is retiring, and will not be able to be 'depositioned'.(Interviewed?) This piece-o-s#*% was a K-9 officer, and had his dog with him etc. when everything happened to us. He was telling us that he was going to keep the dog etc. after he retired, because he 'loved' this dog so much,blah,blah,blah. (You get it, right?) Well I just found out that this so called assh*%# of a cop left this dog in his car with the windows rolled up and the dog he loved so damn much died. Can you believe a K-9 detective did this?! This is someone who should really, REALLY know better. What a frickin' pig this man is. Literally. Just add this to one more reason I hate cops, and people. I cried after my husband angrily told me this when he got off the phone. All day Monday I was so damn depressed and upset hearing about this. I really wonder how people like this are put in a position of authority, and if they are qualified, how they think things like this won't happen to them? I mean really. When this man was getting out of his car in 90 degree heat here in South Florida, did he really think he could leave that dog in there for any amount of time? How friggin' stupid and (un)educated do you have to be to not figure this out? I am so angry, outraged, and damn sad about this, it has kept me up at night. Thank you for listening, and letting me vent. This has been eating me alive since I found out. This from an officer, who told our lawyer how much he DISLIKED my husband and I for making them wait almost 8 hours to get a warrant to search our house. Please,.....he has room to talk. I hope some horrible thing happens to him. Something slow and painful. Maybe than he'll know what it was like for that poor, sweet animal he supposedly 'loved' so much. Pig.

Just keeping ya up to date

This little peanut that I've named Stucky has just stolen my heart. I can't believe how adorable and cute she is. EVERY SINGLE thing she does is perfect and adorable to me. She plays endlessly,....she loves to be petted, and she LOVES feather toys. She is finally getting so that she doesn't run and hide in her basket whenever we walk in the room. She is staying in our empty extra bedroom we have because I'm afraid if I let her have the run of the house she will hide and get stuck somewhere and we might not find her to help. So that is what we are doing. I hate it that she can't be out in the house running around and exploring,...playing, and having fun. Besides,...our other kitty is not real fond of her yet. I say yet because I hope we will be able to change that. Let's hope and pray. I will get back with ya'll to tell you more and keep you posted........................................... I love this little thing so much already.

Someone help me

You'd think life would happen in a different way, but it doesn't. I was at work on Saturday, when someone came in and said they heard a little kitten crying in the bushes right outside the front door,.....of course you know I was out there in a flash. Sure enough,....the little cry was loud, and I started to mew back in my kitty-call, and the little thing sure enough responded! Came right out,....I put the frightened, shaking, LITTLE thing in a box, and ran home and put him(her) in our bathroom, with a litterbox, three little kittybeds, and a small plate of food. I had to finish out my day at work, and came home to the little thing sleeping and full. I kept going in there every hour, to let him get used to me, and know I won't hurt him, but he was still so scared. Everytime I reached for him he would hiss, and try to literally climb up the wall. I felt so bad. So I left him alone for a couple more hours, and went in and put him in a towel, and cooed and petted him till he feel asleep on my chest. So adorable. I then put him on our chaise in the living room, wrapped in the towel, and watched him sleep for awhile longer. I kept him in the bathroom thinking it would be the safest place,.....I went to work on Saturday, and halfway thru the day, my husband called and said he couldn't find the little one. He looked all thru the bathroom,(there is only so many places he could hide,) and couldn't find him. To make a long story short,....we found a hole underneath our bathroom vanity that goes into the wall,....yup,....IN THE WALL. He goes in there now whenever we go in the bathroom to see him, and won't come out unless we put food out, or to go to the litterbox. He runs whenever we open the door. I'm clueless now as to how to build a relationship w/ him, so he trusts me. Just when I was thinking about getting involved again w/ helping kitties,.....here I am. I am at my wit's end trying to figure out what to do. Any ideas? Anything at all?

LOVE my little man, DISLIKE everything else!

I just have to say a few things about my likes and dislikes once more. I mean you know how much I LOVE kitties, and you know how much I HATE people on cellphones. What about other stuff tho, eh? Well, just a little insight into my little brain.
1) I love SATC, Friends, Beavis and Butthead, Burn Notice, and Breaking Bad.
2) I love to listen to music and/or nothing at all when I am home alone,-NO TV. (I say this because my husband has to have the TV on every waking moment. Sometimes it drives me crazy.)
3) I hate talking on the phone, making phone calls, and ringing phones.
4) I would love to be able to dress up everyday, dresses, high-heels, make-up, hair,....I love to be girlie.
5) I HATE,HATE,HATE HUNTING, fowl language, entitled, rude people, slow-driving in the left lane, and ANYONE on cellphones as you very well know!
6) I ADORE animals; especially kitties, dogs, birds, and bears.
7) I had mono when I was 16 and spent almost 14 days in the hospital,...(going down to 86 pounds. I was never so sick in my life!) I missed the last week of school and the first week of the following year, making that summer a big bust. I did nothing fun.
8) I secretly love when my kitty won't go to anyone but me. He knows I would give my life for him. He just knows,-believe me. He even hides behind me and peeks out if he is scared. How I love him.
9) There is nothing I love more than a rainy day so I have an excuse to nap with him,(my kitty,) ALL DAY LONG.
10)I hate mushrooms,...even the smell when they are being cooked, ~it makes me want to toss my cookies. I also hate cheese, mayo, yogurt, cream cheese, cottage cheese, cheesecake of any kind, rice pudding, and flan. No can do.
11) I would NEVER, EVER want to be famous,....seriously,....I would abhor it. It would make me very mentally, and emotionally unstable. Really.
12) I love movie popcorn w/ extra butter, and coca-cola.
13) I love goatees, and most facial hair on guys. VERY ATTRACTIVE, and the meaner someone looks, the MORE attractive they are to me. Yup, it's true.
14) My sister and I once ate a Sara Lee Triple chocolate layer cake before company arrived, and ran to the store to buy another one, (so we wouldn't get in trouble,) and proceeded to eat almost the entire second one that same night.
15) I love anything Canadian, from Canada, and to do w/ Canada.
16) I get hiccups when I laugh too much,(silly, but it really is true.)
17) I love Modern Danish furniture.
18) I once sneezed 14 times in a row! (Even I couldn't believe it!)
19) I really freak-out when I see stitches being given,(even in a movie,) and any kind of injections. I cannot stomach it, I don't know why.(I passed out cold getting blood drawn once.~I hope you're not laughing.) I have tattoos, and piercings,....how? ~I don't know. It's a love/hate, pleasure/pain kinda thing I guess.( I've even had surgery.)
20) I love great dialogue in movies; (Pulp Fiction, No Country For Old Men, Gladiator.) It just intrigues me.
21) When I was a kid I was so weirded out by (thinking I see eyes watching me in windows, )that I couldn't sleep unless I had the curtains totally closed,(no matter how hot it would be,) and I would have to turn all the pictures, posters, dolls, and stuffed animals around so they weren't 'staring' at me. Strange child I was.
22) I taught myself how to type when my husband bought me my first laptop for a Medical Transcription class that I never finished,(but paid for in full,) when my mom became sick. I now type over 45 WPM,(and counting.)
23) I used to NOT be able to drive alone,-EVER. I would have horrible panic attacks. It was damn awful, but never interfered with me working,(to my relief.)
24) I learned to totally shut myself down mentally when things get too rough to handle. I just go into auto-pilot, and I get a little mean and/or cold towards whoever is around me. Weird, but I do it. (I don't really understand it. I guess it's a defense mechanism.)
25) I HATE COPS.
26) I love country music.
27) My first real crush was in 6th grade when I wrote a report on Kris Kristofferson, and have LOVED him ever since. (Cried my eyes out for days after seeing him die in 'A Star is Born'.) I still can't handle seeing that movie.
28) I totally adore Patrick Roy's mental toughness. It just amazes me to no end. I envy, and obsess over how great he is. I miss seeing him play in goal so much, I really do, (and I know how strange I sound.)
29) I had three tattoos, but had two removed (on each shoulder,) and it was honestly the most painful thing I've ever (physically) endured. Oh. My. God. Hurt. Pain.Hurt. And more pain.
30) I have an addictive personality, and I'm loyal to a fault. Once I like someone, they can do 'no wrong', and I will fight to the finish defending them to whoever I have to, any way I can. (Same thing with people I dislike; once they do something I'm not fond of, they will never be in my good graces again; a la Michael Vick. Pig.)
31) I'm a night person,-always have been, and probably always will be.
32) I LOVE Barbra Striesand to no end. (My parents loved her, so I grew-up listening and watching her.) There is no one like her, or even close, and never will be.
33) I am still so IN AWE of Jamey Johnson, and getting to meet him. I will forever sing his praises. (Not to mention how good-looking he is. Yowzaa.) To me, he is a legend-in-the-making. Awesome, talented, unbelievable man.

And with that, I will leave you alone now. If I think of anything more, I'll keep ya posted. Thanks for even reading.

I think I'm going to scream. I can only take so much from people and I feel like I'm at my wit's end. Sometimes I just want to be left alone. Thank god, I came home from a very long day at work, and after a few nights, (and days) of not getting along,....my husband went and played some poker with his friend for a few hours. Giving me some much needed 'alone time'. I played w/ Sugar for a little while,....and then I watched some TV, and now here I am. I miss writing on here every day. It helps me so much. I don't have any contact w/ any of my friends anymore,....I miss going out w/ my girlfriends like we all used to,(Sex and the City style.) Getting dressed in normal dress clothes and heels, nice bags, make-up, etc. I feel good when I'm like that. Dressing for work is nothing like dressing for going out. I just miss feeling good about myself. I haven't in way too long. I haven't worked-out in ten months. I just can't seem to care enough. I even stopped getting pedicures. (OMG!Ewwwwwww.) Tomorrow my husband and I are going down to my mom's and spending the day. My brother and his wife are down from Georgia and we are all getting together for dinner. I don't have a pedicure, my roots are showing, and I'm a good 20 to 30 pounds heavier than I have ever been in my life. I feel so totally disgusting. But every day I get up and I don't care enough to do anything about it. So how do I get out of this funk? How do people survive these damn bad situations hanging over their heads? Our neighbor across the street from us I really admire. She is not perfect by far, and she has had some horrible, horrible things in her life happen, and she still seems to get up every day and put a smile on for the world. And let me tell you,....it's no picnic for her. Her husband committed suicide in their house leaving her w/ four children, a failing business, and a house to take care of alone,....one child is mentally handicapped and will have to be taken care of the rest of his life, and her mother just passed away two months ago. Now how do you like that for a kick in the teeth? I try to make myself think about how NOT BAD I have it, and to be thankful for all the awesome things in my life, like; my husband who really is the love of my life, my kitty, who really is the only one my husband has to be jealous of, because he is a close second to him, in the love's of my life department,....our health, this beautiful house, our great friends,(who are our next-door-neighbors,) my job, and the financial stability we have, (that I know many people don't right now,).....my family, my sister-in-law, and lotsa other things I'm sure I'm forgetting,......but I just can't seem to get myself up and outta my own way,..........I just don't know what to do about it. I want to be a little kid again,....or a kitty, and be adored and loved for the slightest little thing,.....and look cute no matter what I'm doing, and being able to nap whenever, wherever I wanted. That just sounds so happy to me. Am I crazy? or just being irrational? I don't know anymore,.....I just don't.