Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Maybe I'm not so strange

Well,....a lighter posting today, I promise. I have the next two days off, and I really am doing the 'happy dance'. Went shopping at the mall today, but I really wanted to try to go to this other huge outlet mall, but I've never gone by myself, and I couldn't do it. I'm fighting my phobias again because of all the stress,...so yeah,...I wanted to go to one place,but ended up going to the same mall I always go to, (which really isn't so bad.) I just know that the less I do, the less I'm able to do, (if that makes sense to you.) Anyhow~remember when you were little the things you liked,-whether it be food, toys, people, etc.? and the things you didn't? Well, for some reason in traffic trying to keep myself from my panic attacks while driving alone, my mind wandered, and I started remembering all these little things from when I was younger. Weird, huh? Well, I know I can remember LOVING butter so much when I was little that my family had to pass the butter to each other UNDER the table so I wouldn't cry for it. (And believe it or not, I HATE butter, margarine, anything even LIKE butter now.) I loved sweets for as far back as I can remember, and still do,...so much so that in the past three years since all the legal crap has been going on, I ate so much sweets that my dr. told me that I am borderline diabetic, so I have stopped cold turkey, and I never knew how damn hard it would be. I was eating cake, cookies, candy, anything chocolate EVERY SINGLE DAY. Now, MAYBE once a week. I really don't like mushrooms, even the smell of them cooking makes me want to toss my cookies, FOR REAL. Cheeses, all of them, can't stomach, mayonaise, makes me want to gag, any kinda salad dressing, except for oil and vinegar,.....disgusting,...cottage cheese, cream cheese,ANY and ALL cheesecake, sour cream,even whipped cream! all will NEVER-EVER touch my fork. NEVER. I LOVED milk when I was kid and teenager, but as an adult I never touch it. I love eggs, but don't like quiche,....I hate cheese, but can eat pizza if it's mozzarella,....I used to love pasta and tomato sauce, and now I can tolerate pasta, and am allergic to tomato sauce. Strange. I have heard that if you eat alot of a certain thing, that when you get older, you will become allergic to it. I never ate greens when I was a child, but now I love asparagas, salad, green beans, arugula, and broccolli. (I know I can't spell,-bare with me.) I've always loved fish and seafood, but now I'm not thrilled with shrimp so much, but I could eat lobster, clams, and mussels for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I also could eat any kinda breakfast food all day every day. I LOVE breakfast. LOVE, love, love it! One of the other things I can't stomach,-escargot. EEEEeeeeewwwwww!!!!! NEVER EVER. Cannoli's and tiramusi, and any cheesecake, even chocolate cheesecake will never be near me,....and~NEVER liked coffee anything, but now I can't get the day started without my Einstein's vanilla hazelnut iced coffee. So good. And I think I've covered all my bases,....oh, and NEVER to this day will I ever have a male doctor ever. I don't know why, but I can't do it. I'm a strange girl, - I know. Is everyone like this? or have these "things" about them? Makes me wonder.

1 comment:

Merely Me said...

Makes me laugh. Just caught up on your posts. I need to tell you that you sound totally normal! It is good to have a place to vent. Came home early from the hockey game...not even half an hour later the kid is asleep and now I am in bed with my head nodding...