Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Still the Same

Hi there! Sorry, once again, I have been neglecting. My little world is still pretty dismal,-I'm sorry to say. Are ya sick of hearing it?! I am. I have another court date in April, and I'm hating it all still. Still HATE cops, judges, detectives, and most authoritive figures. It's hard for me to hide. I've always been like that. I wear my heart on my sleeve. Most people can read me like a book. My husband, family, friends, and mostly, my kitties have been keeping me somewhat sane. (If you can call me sane, because I feel like I'm totally outta sorts.) Doing everyday things is excruciatingly hard for me. I'm really having a hard time coping. I still haven't found a phsyciatrist yet. (I know I need to.) On the up side, I finally got to visit with my mom for her birthday last weekend. It was really nice to go to Key Largo and just visit. I miss going there. I always felt like a little kid staying there. It felt like I was safe and cocooned. Scary that I don't feel like that anywhere else ever since everything has happened with us. I'm still shopping like a crazy person. I do anything I can to get outta the house sometimes when I feel like we are being watched. (I know I sound paranoid, believe me.) I take walks with the kitties, we sit outside, run around the yard, play, and I really do try to stay busy so I can't think. Do you know how draining that is? This has been going on for almost two years. I am DRAINED. It's no wonder I have aged ten years in the span of two. Munky turned one year old this month. She is so adorable. Her little personality comes out more and more everyday. She still needs to be socialized. She is very scared of everything. Sugar and Munky get along OK, but not great. Yet. I'm still hoping that will change. Sugar has taken up residents with another couple who live one street over from us, and we keep in touch constantly. We even found out that he has ANOTHER family that he's hanging with! (He's such a little 'playa'!) I love my little peanuts. Without them, I would be so horribly unhappy right now. They show me so much love, and fun, and happiness. I forget the world around me when they are around. Munky goes outside with me once a day on her harness and leash, and watching her see things for the first time, and trying to figure some things out, is the cutest thing in the world to me. Her and Sugar interacting just mesmerizes me. I want a bunch of kitties! I would never be unhappy! SO,......

....that's been what's going on with me. Work is going well and uneventful, which is just how I like it. My husband and I are still big homebodies. I cooked a 10 lb. turkey, stuffing and some baked potatoes tonight, and we watched "American Idol". Nice, quiet night,-just like we like. I will write again,.....I PROMISE.
P.S. The sale for the condo fell thru. Still working just for that damn place. Another thing to be hating life about. Bah.

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